Saturday, October 30, 2010

day 1

yesterday was such and emotional day. Mike had his last day at work, and about half way through the day I realized I had been grouchy and crabby all day, but for a reason, I couldn't breath! those darn allergies are back and I was getting irritable with every one, not because I was actually mad but because I felt claustrophobic in my own body, and it put me on edge.

As the day wore on I felt my self near tears and praying to the Lord for a little help. We were having 10 people over for a couples date night. Mike and I were making ALL the food and it needed to not only be good but look nice. with less then two hours left, a house that was barley on the line of clean, no make up and hair done and a list a page long of things to cook (Litterally I had done NO cooking at all!!). i felt the panic set in.

that's when I heard a knock on the door. a good friend, whom I have not been able to see much lately, stopped my " just because she missed me" she quickly looked around and decided to be my sue chef! she stayed until all the guest arrived, cooked, did dishes and encouraged me to "go get ready" even though she wasn't staying for the event herself. I needed her in so many ways. she was more then just a helping hand. she was reassurance that the Lord is mindful of my every stress and worry. from friend ship statuses to dinner prep, my prayers were answered. I was so grateful for this manifestation of the Lords hand in my life.!

A new project

Since there is only one person who reads this blog in the entire universe, I think its a safe place to start my new project. I have been thinking a lot about that talk by Elder Eyring, you know the one about looking each day for the Lords hand in our lives, the one that goes a little farther then just couting your blessings. He asked us to LOOK for them, RECORD them.

So, this is the project, as often as I can, I am going to hop on here and record it, my blessings or the instances when I felt the Lords hand in my life, just quickly not a big deal. But ever since I heard that talk...which was now a while ago, I have felt drawn twards his words and felt the need to do as he asked. So here we go a new experiment!

been gone for a while..

Life has been so crazy I haven't blogged in ....a while. But So much has happened I know I need to post pictures and write it all out. I am expecting this week to be better. I have less going on, so hopefully I can catch up this week with everything!! but until then, I just wanted to mention on one of the bigger changes going on in the Heller home.

Yesterday was Mikes final day at Raymorgan. It was funny all the emotions that rolled through Mike and I as the day went on. Our years with this company have been up down and every where in between...but much more on the upside then anything else. We have personally gotten to know all the owners of the company and their wives. Mike put it best " Brigette, they actually knew us well enough to pronounce your name the right way!" LOL.

So Mike cleaned out his office, wrote any last minute e-mails, and its done. The saddness of the moment is short lived however, all because we are moving on to something that we feel will be much better for our family. In all our searching for the right fit for our family, we have moved, switched jobs several times and gone through one of the hardest years in our family with law school. Through it all, we just never quite had the peace that we were doing the right thing.

When Mike and I discussed this new job, we had a lot of questions, but got only one answer. For the first time in over 5 years, this change felt right and REALLY good. I don't know why we have not been able to get this feeling sooner, I have fretted over this so many times over the last few years, the "why?" but now it doesn't seem to matter because we have a real direction......

so we will call the last few years, learning years, Because we have learned A LOT. Changes are in store for the hellers ( again LOL) but this time, it all feels good, no fear because we know its right for our family. So wish us luck and off we go!